September 28 . 2019

Hey! Week 2! That wasn’t so bad.


I did lots of touristy things. Saw a lot of beautiful architecture, drank lots of Spanish wine, got some DOPE blisters from walking everywhere and felt better about this decision. A lot of people have asked me why I did this. Why here? Why now?

Simply, I wanted my life to change.

I wanted something that I couldn’t name. Something so different I couldn’t even imagine it, I could only live it. I often forget that change is uncomfortable, it pushes you in ways you didn’t expect, and sometimes it feels like getting the rug pulled out from under you. But, it is—technically—what I wanted. ‘Careful what you ask for’ moment.

Learning to be okay when everything is different than what you expected, when everything is out of your control. Stability in instability. Calm in chaos.

Letting go.

And then something really amazing happened. Well besides feeling better. I noticed that things went a little more smoothly. I GOT A JOB. During the interview she just, hired me. I’ll be a private English tutor, lesson plans provided, great hours, great pay, no paperwork necessary. DREAM.


I still am not sure what the long term plan is, but I am more than okay with that. Baby steps.